On going home

I sit drinking my tea looking out the window taking in another grey and damp morning in London. This morning is not like any other drizzly cool days because today I am going home.

I remember my last blog before I left for Zambia. Giant butterflies rallied inside my body and the multiplying unknown was looming over my head suffocating my peace, waiting for me to jump into the river of change. What a wild ride it has been. There were times I was carried along serenely, at times I was thrown against the jagged rocks, there were times of stagnation and times of tumultuous speed. I felt extreme loneliness, and claustrophobia that is brought on when you are days and oceans apart from everything you call home. Knowing that you are all you have is a very empowering experience. Getting through periods of great heartache is how you learn endurance. Over coming feelings of boredom and finding ways to be happy is the path to contentment.

I have learned patience beyond my wildest dreams, I have witnessed death and poverty beyond my wildest night mares, and I have experienced love far beyond my greatest expectations of the definition of the word.

Life is not easy. There are difficulties all along the way and we should not avoid them or ignore them. As the rock is smoothed by being tossed around by the ocean, we too are refined by the rolling of the waves. Have faith in the process. Have faith in yourself, of course faith falters but the people in your life will help you regain your courage and then you will help others find their strength and sparkle.

I have loved this time of my life. It was a beautiful experience and one full of ups and downs, moving forward and regressing...then center.

We are all moving forward, never forget that. We are the individual threads of the tapestry, hold on to the bigger picture. Fill your life with experience and self awareness, learn about art and biology. Star gaze and dream of adventure. Be open, be present, be lucky!

The end of a spectacular chapter, now on to a greater one...I must get ready now, I've got a plane to catch.