pondering

one week and half to get over my jet lag. i feel like i have been working my way through a forest that was blanketed by thick mist. but i now see the dawn breaking, and my body has found some ground the begin standing firmly on.

i only started thinking about the way my life was there, today. the small things, how i used to stand in the sun and relish in the warmth, the brilliant little faces staring at my white skin. the clear plastic bags that the pita bread came in, the lizards, neighbors, a cold mosi beer.

i recollect the memories like it was a dream, but i still have the strengths that i have awakened in myself so i know it was real. i am now faced with another adventure, although i am in familiar settings with my loved ones, i have a new eyes for seeing my surroundings. i feel very lucky to have traveled for the past 6 1/2 months because i see the passage of time, and i am experiencing brand new things with my family and friends that i would have taken for granted before, i would have been too comfortable or anxious to realize the beauty that has always surrounded me.

i believe we would live our days very differently if we kept that fact in mind. that time is flowing and doesn't stop for anything, we are growing and shifting all of the time, be aware of the dynamic ability for life to happen without you even knowing. but wouldn't you rather know!?

enjoy everything. its all happening around you. you already are the best person you want to be. just see it. now.